* Spark of Creation *

heyy

yesterday was eventful. church, heather's suprise party, more church. then bed.

Somewhere in there, alex gave me the EVERGLOW!! omgosh i love her.

Then, at heather's party.. omgosh funny stuff. and we created a gibberman/zibbins family.. haha i still don't believe laura fell for it :-P

today was heather's real birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEATHER!

and.. i got a smile in the hallway. a genuine one, i think. :-D i was completely ecstatic

Posted by emma at 7:33 PM | Permalink | Comments

I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go downI go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go downIt hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me thereI think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and thereI confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly

You give me hope,
And hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart,
And when you do you make it light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you,
Though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic,
But it's a fallen man's praise
Because I love you
Oh God, I love you
And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth

When I go downI life my eyes to you
I won't look very far
Cause you'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again

Posted by emma at 5:09 AM | Permalink | Comments

I CARE!

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Sorry, i've been tampering with the template. If you can't see because the colors are too wierd, i 've got good news! i'm fixing it...

~emma

Posted by emma at 5:17 AM | Permalink | Comments

Hey....

It's so incredible that one person has hardened my heart so much.. and you'd think that a hardened heart couldn't be broken, right?

Wrong.

My heart is more fragile now then before. It shatters quicker, it's brittle and dying.

And i promise i won't point fingers.

But i wish i hadn't hardened my heart. i wish i hadn't been so afraid.

because now i'm so dizzy.



Thank god for friends that are constant. they don't move, don't give me reaon to be dizzy.

I love my friends.

Posted by emma at 2:37 PM | Permalink | Comments

heyy

omgosh last night was the funniest night for conversations, for some reason.

Me and AnG set up this hysterical conspiracy, grasso and i talked about how bio now has a gender, the Fantastic Two and the brady bunch. And jeff talked about laxatives, fire trucks, drugstores, and voodoo dolls.

Then i called something morbid. He said "uh oh. i knew it.. i knew you'd use a word i didn't know."

then i felt bad. someone's got to help me get into the habit of just calling things disgusting :-D


i love mae, i love relient k, i love forever changed, i love casting crowns...is anyone seeing the pattern yet ? <3

Posted by emma at 5:12 AM | Permalink | Comments

It's kinda nice to know that i'm morally sound by personality test standards. but that really doesn't say much, does it?

~emma

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