heyy - -
I'm sorry i haven't updated, but, thanks to persistent commenters, i got the picture that it's more than time to.
Plus, I've been thinking about things i've been wanting to say.
So here :
(1) I've never had to say anything that hard to say before. I hated saying it, I hated facing the ugly truth of it. But that's what it is. And I'm not entirely thrilled about it either. But I know that I need him so terribly as a friend. I need to continue to tell him everything as i've been. I need somewhere to rant even when this doesn't suffice.
It all comes down to the fact that i have to be sure that i have the ability to give him my undivided attention.
And right now, i fear, i am unable to do that.
The guilt was killing me.
(2) I've been trying to get some research done, and know i'm afraid my own foundations are shaking (Scaryyyyyyy thought!) But here you go:
A. Ephesians 2:8-9 (especially nine).
B. John 14:6
C. John 11:25
D. Matthew 5:17-20
^^ at least, i think those are right.
enough of that.
moving on...
I'm sorry that you feel i'm not me this week. I'll try to be more emma this week. If i fail, let me know.
But really, everyone's entitled to their few seconds of despair. Mine are over. It's just that i bottle up so very much. Please know that i'm still here for you.
<3 emma (the old one we all love? hopefully :-P).
p.s. - i want to grow my bangs out, but my mother is taking me to the hairdressers'. she said i either need to pin them back (like not having bangs at all) or cut them back. ew.