Back to Normal?
heyy - -
I'm sorry i haven't updated, but, thanks to persistent commenters, i got the picture that it's more than time to.
Plus, I've been thinking about things i've been wanting to say.
So here :
(1) I've never had to say anything that hard to say before. I hated saying it, I hated facing the ugly truth of it. But that's what it is. And I'm not entirely thrilled about it either. But I know that I need him so terribly as a friend. I need to continue to tell him everything as i've been. I need somewhere to rant even when this doesn't suffice.
It all comes down to the fact that i have to be sure that i have the ability to give him my undivided attention.
And right now, i fear, i am unable to do that.
The guilt was killing me.
(2) I've been trying to get some research done, and know i'm afraid my own foundations are shaking (Scaryyyyyyy thought!) But here you go:
A. Ephesians 2:8-9 (especially nine).
B. John 14:6
C. John 11:25
D. Matthew 5:17-20
^^ at least, i think those are right.
enough of that.
moving on...
I'm sorry that you feel i'm not me this week. I'll try to be more emma this week. If i fail, let me know.
But really, everyone's entitled to their few seconds of despair. Mine are over. It's just that i bottle up so very much. Please know that i'm still here for you.
<3 emma (the old one we all love? hopefully :-P).
p.s. - i want to grow my bangs out, but my mother is taking me to the hairdressers'. she said i either need to pin them back (like not having bangs at all) or cut them back. ew.
I'm sorry i haven't updated, but, thanks to persistent commenters, i got the picture that it's more than time to.
Plus, I've been thinking about things i've been wanting to say.
So here :
(1) I've never had to say anything that hard to say before. I hated saying it, I hated facing the ugly truth of it. But that's what it is. And I'm not entirely thrilled about it either. But I know that I need him so terribly as a friend. I need to continue to tell him everything as i've been. I need somewhere to rant even when this doesn't suffice.
It all comes down to the fact that i have to be sure that i have the ability to give him my undivided attention.
And right now, i fear, i am unable to do that.
The guilt was killing me.
(2) I've been trying to get some research done, and know i'm afraid my own foundations are shaking (Scaryyyyyyy thought!) But here you go:
A. Ephesians 2:8-9 (especially nine).
B. John 14:6
C. John 11:25
D. Matthew 5:17-20
^^ at least, i think those are right.
enough of that.
moving on...
I'm sorry that you feel i'm not me this week. I'll try to be more emma this week. If i fail, let me know.
But really, everyone's entitled to their few seconds of despair. Mine are over. It's just that i bottle up so very much. Please know that i'm still here for you.
<3 emma (the old one we all love? hopefully :-P).
p.s. - i want to grow my bangs out, but my mother is taking me to the hairdressers'. she said i either need to pin them back (like not having bangs at all) or cut them back. ew.
I've been different and angsty this week too. no more bottles huh? time for weening. we'll talk. about everything...things are back to normal. i'm going to be okay too. i figure this is better for me. more time for history, more time for english, more time for sleep, for you, for HOUSE.<3
Posted by
Anonymous |
7:44 PM
omgosh yes. please know that I'm always here for you! i still love youuuuu!
(and HOUSE. I love him too <3)
Posted by
emma |
4:56 PM
i've been tryng to think of a perfect comment to leave you for this post. unfortunately nothing really comes to mind... all i can say is that i'm here for you and you can always talk to me no matter what. don't ever feel scared to speak your mind to me and i'll help you any way i can. i guess there's not much else to say so i'll ttyl.
-chris
Posted by
Anonymous |
7:13 PM