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Ughh!

heyy heyy - -

yeah, well, today was interesting...

Rehearsal at the high school. painted corn. it was nice, but it turned my hand yellow...


... then i had harmony... that was nice too!
yay for having a soloooo :-)


and... omgosh, ew, i'm sooooo stupid.

I'm soooo stupid for thinking... well, for thinking this time would be different.

What was i doing? don't i remember... don't i remember all those other times, it always happening this way?!

well, i suppose this is my fault.
I'll just have to... wait it out, like all the other times.

I'm just so mad that i didn't see this coming.


Heck, i should write a book on ignoring vicious cycles...


But that doesn't mean my opinion has changed. I still feel the way i do, just... even more frusterated.

I've completely isolated myself, ... yeah, i did it. it's my fault, really.

Because i should've known.


... yeah.