The Good and the Bad
heyy..
it's, like, 6:00 in the morning, but i felt the need to update..
lots has happened that i haven't written about...
my fish died. that was depressing.
further... i was going through my blog, way back to... when it starts, thanks to chris (omgosh he left comments all over this thing, go read them :-p) and ... i realized something.
It keeps reoccuring. And I know now for sure that that's why i'm mad at myself. I just keep letting it happen. Eventually he's gonna pick up my heart and drop it too fast, and it'll just break completely. But there's evidence all over my history of times that he (hopefully unintentionally) had me going, just to leave me halfway, without further direction.
This time, though, it got me real close to the heart. This time impacted me so badly that i couldn't breathe.
But i'm catching my breath again (just like I had to do every other time).
Thank god for great friends.
AHHH! today i've got to lead a songggg! I"m so excited, but really intimidated.
wish me luckkkkk!... well, i guess no-one will read this in time, it's too late.. but oh well! hopefully saying "wish me luckkkkk" will bring me some :-P
<3
it's, like, 6:00 in the morning, but i felt the need to update..
lots has happened that i haven't written about...
my fish died. that was depressing.
further... i was going through my blog, way back to... when it starts, thanks to chris (omgosh he left comments all over this thing, go read them :-p) and ... i realized something.
It keeps reoccuring. And I know now for sure that that's why i'm mad at myself. I just keep letting it happen. Eventually he's gonna pick up my heart and drop it too fast, and it'll just break completely. But there's evidence all over my history of times that he (hopefully unintentionally) had me going, just to leave me halfway, without further direction.
This time, though, it got me real close to the heart. This time impacted me so badly that i couldn't breathe.
But i'm catching my breath again (just like I had to do every other time).
Thank god for great friends.
AHHH! today i've got to lead a songggg! I"m so excited, but really intimidated.
wish me luckkkkk!... well, i guess no-one will read this in time, it's too late.. but oh well! hopefully saying "wish me luckkkkk" will bring me some :-P
<3